tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26911335241719143332024-03-19T01:54:26.333-07:00Carve Your HeartCaitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.comBlogger43125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-22073495236831956802010-12-14T17:55:00.000-08:002010-12-14T17:55:08.783-08:00Who Knows Only Time<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHZKmYWZhGEFtjov7gtzjI6CLyHbIAk3-H8JsGFQ32wCGBYKqWQuQ0nCcAVRzE2nANgQt-ByYfe1CBdxrZYuSQ_0T82F2pZBuTgRt9nf8QMTRNuyl5Prfk0yCWCv7jiT4cXGL4ZB2xvksQ/s1600/tumblr_lcj00nezDf1qa0ej0o1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="222" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHZKmYWZhGEFtjov7gtzjI6CLyHbIAk3-H8JsGFQ32wCGBYKqWQuQ0nCcAVRzE2nANgQt-ByYfe1CBdxrZYuSQ_0T82F2pZBuTgRt9nf8QMTRNuyl5Prfk0yCWCv7jiT4cXGL4ZB2xvksQ/s320/tumblr_lcj00nezDf1qa0ej0o1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
Ahh time how is it that so much has escaped me<br />
i never really feel motivated to do what i aught to<br />
now that i finally have some time to myself i realize DAMMIT!<br />
i have wasted so much time, i dont like that i ended up here<br />
but here is as good as any place to start<br />
i just get so scared... thats always been my problem<br />
stupid nerves man<br />
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I made several different prints for my final portfolio that say Its About Time.<br />
and i feel like maybe now it is about time to get going<br />
vamos<br />
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why do you always ruin my high, it sucks that we cant talk about whats really going on<br />
i need someone to talk to but you just dont get it<br />
i dont think anyone does at this point,not even me<br />
i am a puzzle with the pieces missing<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">Its been awhile since ive written anything and i figure even though everyday is a new start the begining of november just seems to have a nice ring to it, and now that midterms are over i feel like i can start fresh, or something.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So here it goes. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh90ysqxZn8JpslamCe_IjVDjHz2XdxusJvM4x0r0DHbY026dGkf4jeHMHdcsQhDwrDn_1kmJra2lwTqW-kK1Run4n7gq_bBR9BYwPmAarpGxLWneuPNRd9MPJ423mndT5aC4IGQzXCFRUF/s1600/tumblr_l9qldrZolk1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="205" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh90ysqxZn8JpslamCe_IjVDjHz2XdxusJvM4x0r0DHbY026dGkf4jeHMHdcsQhDwrDn_1kmJra2lwTqW-kK1Run4n7gq_bBR9BYwPmAarpGxLWneuPNRd9MPJ423mndT5aC4IGQzXCFRUF/s320/tumblr_l9qldrZolk1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div> <br />
<div style="text-align: center;">I finally finished The Artists Way, it somehow took me several months to complete the week 12 assignments and they are all based around worries and fears of going back into the world and making art. Am i good enough should i even be in school for this or wait a few years and then come back, am i committed enough, and frick is this even something i can make money at one day. I mean its all legit stuff. I just had my printmaking midterm on thursday and my profs were pleased with my work but still wanted me to push everything much further, and i worry that i dont know what further means or really how to push myself forward enough. I want to express emotion in my work yet im too timid when it comes to my art, affraid of scratching more then the surface.Maybe im just scared of what i might discover if i go deep. yikes a bee! what a dilemma</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKtDryoSmloPDCfvrXOihvEkc29UctfmFKZGNNv-DjQ6FpdrMK3btkg9O9CLSWgbXYsda02ZPLFOwwoxm8b5mwQMFL5Yc5ECAIaLWLOumc7OAT3X5bfO8VeG4fiW1misIiUj2SdtzXEe-o/s1600/tumblr_la19rw6g5Y1qzy92yo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="199" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKtDryoSmloPDCfvrXOihvEkc29UctfmFKZGNNv-DjQ6FpdrMK3btkg9O9CLSWgbXYsda02ZPLFOwwoxm8b5mwQMFL5Yc5ECAIaLWLOumc7OAT3X5bfO8VeG4fiW1misIiUj2SdtzXEe-o/s320/tumblr_la19rw6g5Y1qzy92yo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;"> When Kate left i never properly mourned for her, i just changed my surroundings completely i went to europe and then switched schools in the fall and just sort of kept going without looking back.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEic6rriL0WhPBv8GMAV3ee1sp-J6UsRlF0dlDJVRHtZLmgtA3LlRgkG-CpElU6wjtxqElEDXUozjruuP3z-UcAPkHmadBpTakbb6B9RwyHpscvtvzc5bCooZEwZjQsXEVV1glTGbsdYqVmI/s1600/tumblr_l9trzx2zcr1qc8g66o1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="275" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEic6rriL0WhPBv8GMAV3ee1sp-J6UsRlF0dlDJVRHtZLmgtA3LlRgkG-CpElU6wjtxqElEDXUozjruuP3z-UcAPkHmadBpTakbb6B9RwyHpscvtvzc5bCooZEwZjQsXEVV1glTGbsdYqVmI/s320/tumblr_l9trzx2zcr1qc8g66o1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6ISdamGsoxHNl0iHVT9ouiRqeaf_DOYmkFrLqRY1wymxqmNuWevMwDCNMyLRTPtcvWJxeNsDA52LCtDQF2RAwwRhwNsqmnmdBmJBAAVSsdrcHbrPqILAtPdZue7xtVsY8KJLmfU_yrlI9/s1600/tumblr_lau3noDD9e1qb31vdo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6ISdamGsoxHNl0iHVT9ouiRqeaf_DOYmkFrLqRY1wymxqmNuWevMwDCNMyLRTPtcvWJxeNsDA52LCtDQF2RAwwRhwNsqmnmdBmJBAAVSsdrcHbrPqILAtPdZue7xtVsY8KJLmfU_yrlI9/s320/tumblr_lau3noDD9e1qb31vdo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
But her passing has affected every relationship ive had in the past 5 years. I havent been able to get and stay close with anyone not even my family, everyone is at a comfortable distance. Ive decided to start seeing an art therapist because well lets face it thats not healthy. And i cant move forward until i mend whats behind me.<br />
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Ahh nothing hits the spot quite like turkey dinner with good company.<br />
this week has been so crazy and busy i cant waiit for midterms to be over so that i can finally feel like i have some free time. Its nice that i have an extra day off becuase of thanksgiving, hopefully i can catch up and maybe even get ahead.Today is a good day not alot of things can distract me cause all of downtown is closed so maybe ill do my drawing and 2 presentations on artists for print class. and maybe some litho if im feeling keen.but i dont really know what im doing in that class huh could be interesting...<br />
well im off to draw some poppiesCaitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-58924667501317094322010-10-09T09:10:00.000-07:002010-10-11T11:10:49.984-07:00Sometimes rain clouds last all year<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWDkTn9LDzDFF2IFJGGvHX7qmF2kkf9IRdX-sej__E4YjeM653LEdaCUdPqxX3M2L9sUoow3V3AR9ROJFtSc1BXUaCZdX8UYE9TxXX6MqoMXmrT3k7MJg4rizNl-Tef4CmqWT13tt-4wl2/s1600/tumblr_l9yrgrtnYW1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="202" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWDkTn9LDzDFF2IFJGGvHX7qmF2kkf9IRdX-sej__E4YjeM653LEdaCUdPqxX3M2L9sUoow3V3AR9ROJFtSc1BXUaCZdX8UYE9TxXX6MqoMXmrT3k7MJg4rizNl-Tef4CmqWT13tt-4wl2/s320/tumblr_l9yrgrtnYW1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">Im told that this is normal to feel like this at this age.</div><div style="text-align: center;">so when exactly is it supposed to stop </div><div style="text-align: center;">that the feelings come in waves and you just have to learn to stand up strong enough </div><div style="text-align: center;">so they wont knock you down.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But they always do.</div><div style="text-align: center;">everytime.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhqtubs9nNCnV1kN0Davb617olLTzbFJ35cMuDI5e_73JKlBrfW1O7lUYemLqMBloJ5XErKb0L4KskWhcaf3OEy-KLjNWhjqvMz6z9TRrcTNCgJpMcmtrobDAfzUHF5gbAXSCAHjjiHapF/s1600/tumblr_l8epjqtYk21qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhqtubs9nNCnV1kN0Davb617olLTzbFJ35cMuDI5e_73JKlBrfW1O7lUYemLqMBloJ5XErKb0L4KskWhcaf3OEy-KLjNWhjqvMz6z9TRrcTNCgJpMcmtrobDAfzUHF5gbAXSCAHjjiHapF/s320/tumblr_l8epjqtYk21qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">what if im not strong enough to move forward, or ask what it is i need from people </div><div style="text-align: center;">we all just keep keeping on, dont we</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXKjeNhtUR3GFpK6ia4nJ7riKJMDLpAcH9oyuHPAkPTXkjg5i5NWcUz2rymY1SXyn9GZ3ggM892LTVVBfTaFcCJPnHug7P-pG6eXbuO58c093ZvgeIWRxH1BQwhEQ2cqrwHFlpRHQ0SSH-/s1600/tumblr_l9ybz6zdTp1qai0ioo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXKjeNhtUR3GFpK6ia4nJ7riKJMDLpAcH9oyuHPAkPTXkjg5i5NWcUz2rymY1SXyn9GZ3ggM892LTVVBfTaFcCJPnHug7P-pG6eXbuO58c093ZvgeIWRxH1BQwhEQ2cqrwHFlpRHQ0SSH-/s320/tumblr_l9ybz6zdTp1qai0ioo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div>believe<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiz0IdXRr9gK0tBlw7xd3mofOqQ9EYKK5MTdhy6KNWHOrj-gJYyfyjYO66-iHXE6VPcZKScKMZ2dBimGlXFgpP2DmEtjv2W2VFUbwVdmIg17iy3ehrRJjuertPt1gCP5fNp7h1bg5wWJOBG/s1600/tumblr_l86iky3rhY1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="225" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiz0IdXRr9gK0tBlw7xd3mofOqQ9EYKK5MTdhy6KNWHOrj-gJYyfyjYO66-iHXE6VPcZKScKMZ2dBimGlXFgpP2DmEtjv2W2VFUbwVdmIg17iy3ehrRJjuertPt1gCP5fNp7h1bg5wWJOBG/s320/tumblr_l86iky3rhY1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div> and maybe the sun will come out again</div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-51399882698347104382010-09-11T19:23:00.000-07:002010-09-11T19:23:55.058-07:00Heart Aches Heart<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi85sn7AAQBm4lSMk1EsEOEPwBktUdfySsmRH6x8ZxvtXwRoHsbcX8rbaX6SlnG14lB19YQbi_SS-zfUnL3pNl4Ff9vY-nGJ6QeMyriksA1zI6iC9uaqh14RA7Q_swbTtODd2wtECydmUI2/s1600/tumblr_l7f8togiMH1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi85sn7AAQBm4lSMk1EsEOEPwBktUdfySsmRH6x8ZxvtXwRoHsbcX8rbaX6SlnG14lB19YQbi_SS-zfUnL3pNl4Ff9vY-nGJ6QeMyriksA1zI6iC9uaqh14RA7Q_swbTtODd2wtECydmUI2/s320/tumblr_l7f8togiMH1qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">Sometimes little hearts just ache</div><div style="text-align: center;">Like sore feet after a walk</div><div style="text-align: center;">I tried to rub it better</div><div style="text-align: center;">But my ribs got in the way</div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-3915984150164763472010-09-07T18:13:00.000-07:002010-09-07T18:13:35.154-07:00801 things<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrrNgPg-6aEWGXesshTqRud2w6UMhz_jcpJptbkPWzVaWLFU7yGxz4A-5TR2uZYg6AblEh6Ao16l0IoeMniTlHZJEiSERgtS333ou1VYaNXavO5kBafB00Swl-Tlo8UThcXUwh8kYFFIV5/s1600/ifangelshadwings.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrrNgPg-6aEWGXesshTqRud2w6UMhz_jcpJptbkPWzVaWLFU7yGxz4A-5TR2uZYg6AblEh6Ao16l0IoeMniTlHZJEiSERgtS333ou1VYaNXavO5kBafB00Swl-Tlo8UThcXUwh8kYFFIV5/s320/ifangelshadwings.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Ahh the last night of summer holidays... there are still about a handfull of things id like to have completed or even started before school starts, like embroidering my jean jacket or learning to long board. On the other hand i cant wait for school to start, all the people, the fascinating things i get to learn and just hangout with artists all day, yeah im down. Im hoping that this year ill be less shy, and make art thats really from the heart, and has depth and meaning. Last year it was more of an exploration into what the heck is art school? and what kind of art do i make? what? how? huh? I guess art is always changing and growing, so its hard to pin point what exactly one does, or should do maybe i just want direction with my work wanting to know where its going or what it wants to become but really i just want to find something i can be passionate about again. <br />
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Ive been nervous the last couple days thinking bout the new semester ,<br />
the initial meeting new people, and finding all my classes,<br />
hoping ill learn some really rad things about art,<br />
hoping no one notices my slight limp from my bashed up leg<br />
clumsy camping adventures...tisk tisk,<br />
but really why worry when i cannot predict the future.<br />
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But life is like a box of chocolates,<br />
you really never know what your going to get forest gump<br />
you really dontCaitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-73546556598255702362010-08-13T19:53:00.000-07:002010-08-13T19:55:38.875-07:00Living a Teenage Dream<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQmj8NcL0HdT9nDj20k2mTgFDsAK5lyyMtQarfoY5fn7P2bsEgzfcjLTTyfZDHgoCZvqzNxBet8wyIeKC4zntolsT09Lbik-Awbs5VvXHJTZ6U9mHJ-hVOo6LrujvU12kCqUC7avzb4HHS/s1600/tumblr_l72kxu8JZq1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQmj8NcL0HdT9nDj20k2mTgFDsAK5lyyMtQarfoY5fn7P2bsEgzfcjLTTyfZDHgoCZvqzNxBet8wyIeKC4zntolsT09Lbik-Awbs5VvXHJTZ6U9mHJ-hVOo6LrujvU12kCqUC7avzb4HHS/s320/tumblr_l72kxu8JZq1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Since coming home ive had a lot of things on my mind. Direction mostly.where ive been and where i want to go.How ive let fear control most of my life illudes me but im aware now that if i keep it up its going to lead to a dead end. A locked door instead of a wide open one. Ive always assumed it was shyness and perhaps it is, or that im too much like my mother or maybe that i dont have a strong enough backbone to stand up for myself enough, i dunno really.<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">I started having a conversation with someone about kindness, and she told me that it is hugely important to be kind. and since i have<i> "Kindness"</i> inked on my body she asked me to explore what my tattoo really means to me, other then being a very sweet quote.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiu0TpWjexE-PoDwryyIacgX-FRl_iksC6cAjBc8rlhszMjnh4uWZXRRhAlRIUdvh7kzhA5OgYA_sALatW0Y_1NUpVeDrIvIs1B6-9SG5TBuKNkl4gqII7miSEdOTjHmN6oz4-TNk1TGKLt/s1600/tumblr_l7098soofO1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiu0TpWjexE-PoDwryyIacgX-FRl_iksC6cAjBc8rlhszMjnh4uWZXRRhAlRIUdvh7kzhA5OgYA_sALatW0Y_1NUpVeDrIvIs1B6-9SG5TBuKNkl4gqII7miSEdOTjHmN6oz4-TNk1TGKLt/s320/tumblr_l7098soofO1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;"> i had this quote in my head for years and i finally got it tattooed on my shoulder it reads </div><div style="text-align: center;">"In the end only kindness matters".</div><div style="text-align: center;">And its not just about showing kindness towards others but most importantly yourself,</div><div style="text-align: center;">which i hadnt really thought about until now. Being kind comes in all forms,</div><div style="text-align: center;">whether its giving myself that extra 10 minutes to hit the snooze button or allowing myself to go after desires,and passions, getting what i want out of life. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaAPk-6Iv7im9YID05SgBxQsB4WCkY03J-L3LBO8jTnQ9pN5hJv83uLWq28q5R_9WhgzTDkhc0ZZ5FzXG2GwCBvqhyfbpUhdL9ORnjIBkOQNgGGFblZgYl8uRwGLdJTCwvqkVoDjwIySPq/s1600/tumblr_l6cvfdHoF41qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaAPk-6Iv7im9YID05SgBxQsB4WCkY03J-L3LBO8jTnQ9pN5hJv83uLWq28q5R_9WhgzTDkhc0ZZ5FzXG2GwCBvqhyfbpUhdL9ORnjIBkOQNgGGFblZgYl8uRwGLdJTCwvqkVoDjwIySPq/s320/tumblr_l6cvfdHoF41qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgI-Bbg0Qhcd3nANStQE5XRSgntydk7LORQnNJT7oEvYaPZK1rKXGvcDe6WX7mfwhYSkTHTqfPbi1uexkXdNzzO7QsaVrGn31ZkiwbMYM8UoD1aljuyu7lMs-lWGRBV9_pf0wTncTeXTwLk/s1600/tumblr_l6mtsrm9lJ1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgI-Bbg0Qhcd3nANStQE5XRSgntydk7LORQnNJT7oEvYaPZK1rKXGvcDe6WX7mfwhYSkTHTqfPbi1uexkXdNzzO7QsaVrGn31ZkiwbMYM8UoD1aljuyu7lMs-lWGRBV9_pf0wTncTeXTwLk/s320/tumblr_l6mtsrm9lJ1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">Creating art, sitting by the ocean, hanging out with friends, sending mail, adventuring. </div><div style="text-align: center;">I keep putting these things off, but they are what fuel me, they keep my fire going, </div><div style="text-align: center;">and without them i feel lost, and then i get sad.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So ive decided to be kind and give into my desires, and no longer hide behind my fear, </div><div style="text-align: center;">cause that never really served anyone.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6a5b7SdmaK6mzHFhFBtx0Tk4ZhoPv0BmqaFLsiyXxzklEEUX9Q3Ze-h7d3U5Gsi5Gh6923sn_XldY9PTafukPNO29jRwLWNANAm0DrzN2J6hMm6-2Z8YVuKBf0CMMFxHpWWSXzks7g9Xy/s1600/tumblr_l6l3fsIlMB1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6a5b7SdmaK6mzHFhFBtx0Tk4ZhoPv0BmqaFLsiyXxzklEEUX9Q3Ze-h7d3U5Gsi5Gh6923sn_XldY9PTafukPNO29jRwLWNANAm0DrzN2J6hMm6-2Z8YVuKBf0CMMFxHpWWSXzks7g9Xy/s320/tumblr_l6l3fsIlMB1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfNd_8IJKgRmPnkEs_rWQE7KAFzWjHWnpIMTUN3hgPcYHDaQsbD9ReD5pDp98t7aMmjOCAYa6KEnoczcgxhxOJ0jVzB2UAFlQDwdZMwCEJDC0HcF9IRY3R6PtBdv-BiGfaEMzqpIJaYtN7/s1600/tumblr_l6s5d9N9ed1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfNd_8IJKgRmPnkEs_rWQE7KAFzWjHWnpIMTUN3hgPcYHDaQsbD9ReD5pDp98t7aMmjOCAYa6KEnoczcgxhxOJ0jVzB2UAFlQDwdZMwCEJDC0HcF9IRY3R6PtBdv-BiGfaEMzqpIJaYtN7/s320/tumblr_l6s5d9N9ed1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwcll35_-1jtA3cO9dsBy_MzjXQKf7_Iqa08O5pQwhCdRCLjJk-ETTCluTJV0p6pQnIVgKNInwJ4Aow_09Qk2sGqq2mhKzLL70a6nG6giMrHpbQE52dKX06bS91PWeS8V8b67oCBQ7lWym/s1600/tumblr_l6yv4tOaqo1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwcll35_-1jtA3cO9dsBy_MzjXQKf7_Iqa08O5pQwhCdRCLjJk-ETTCluTJV0p6pQnIVgKNInwJ4Aow_09Qk2sGqq2mhKzLL70a6nG6giMrHpbQE52dKX06bS91PWeS8V8b67oCBQ7lWym/s320/tumblr_l6yv4tOaqo1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjfoN0vAe_bRZ_YfQ2cQrA4_dq_eev82idBtDrCJEnoeO81qYm9NesYLSkyaq6Zw23_RaA3rhCKaxWvx9JizjfByFLs1GHFuPoHR365H42edjHmsWmAcDtmRtZqyTkRnFCEXezQpvMoZlE/s1600/tumblr_l6c67ltiC61qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjfoN0vAe_bRZ_YfQ2cQrA4_dq_eev82idBtDrCJEnoeO81qYm9NesYLSkyaq6Zw23_RaA3rhCKaxWvx9JizjfByFLs1GHFuPoHR365H42edjHmsWmAcDtmRtZqyTkRnFCEXezQpvMoZlE/s320/tumblr_l6c67ltiC61qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">Be honest.<br />
Speak from your heart. </div><div style="text-align: center;">Be kind to yourself.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaR67GmAB0FHQBZ-JmPgXJ7OMO5xf6y12yBcy9npLsyZFKpOx0RaU-WmgfIiDkvrtXH2OV1sK5py7TMNFPlMG3rKsz8xXLAnQRiaR4qxn24fICX0QBkmPTpbhczVFGJGNAw-vxrcvJj5SG/s1600/tumblr_l6mtep51NW1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaR67GmAB0FHQBZ-JmPgXJ7OMO5xf6y12yBcy9npLsyZFKpOx0RaU-WmgfIiDkvrtXH2OV1sK5py7TMNFPlMG3rKsz8xXLAnQRiaR4qxn24fICX0QBkmPTpbhczVFGJGNAw-vxrcvJj5SG/s320/tumblr_l6mtep51NW1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3-GiVIE8gc&NR=1">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3-GiVIE8gc&NR=1</a>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-56369631331024470132010-07-31T00:10:00.000-07:002010-07-31T00:10:47.047-07:00Roots Travel To The Sea<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfNtVmBQS_QRi4gbACXgHIMkBjPae2eovjkohOx7neiLYpvTaky7ekOB8xK_SYGCsr_il_ERY7W-DZxVbNdXwqY9b_HJEh7oOh2FNANfP2i_k48hMhoj-9vhfmfpWAqdHwPNYEMN7oQ6yW/s1600/tumblr_l692mrVYSh1qcvsf4o1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfNtVmBQS_QRi4gbACXgHIMkBjPae2eovjkohOx7neiLYpvTaky7ekOB8xK_SYGCsr_il_ERY7W-DZxVbNdXwqY9b_HJEh7oOh2FNANfP2i_k48hMhoj-9vhfmfpWAqdHwPNYEMN7oQ6yW/s320/tumblr_l692mrVYSh1qcvsf4o1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Ive finally made it back to Calgary for a quick visit and then im back to my east coast ocean home. Its been really nice being back so far, getting fed real meals, not having to cook and hanging out with my mama. Its an odd feeling being back, it doesnt feel like home anymore, all these new sky scrapers emerging, new sub divisions being built over night, no water. This place reminds me of my old life,the places i used to go adventuring, but ultimately i had to find my own way, pick up and leave start fresh somewhere new see what life has to offer me<br />
I hope i can find what i came here for.<br />
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I need to try harder this fall,cause it wasnt working right last year and shit has to change if im gonna stay happy for more then a few months.This is gonna be my lucky year 21. <3<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">Garage sale saturday i need to pay my hearts outstanding bills</div><div style="text-align: center;"> -the weakerthans</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcRezfUclKffCgDRFRlaKHw2zRjsp0-nJVXx4ZyqWH6e2gPt9b2UJyQ8z3s1CG2YDer5qIKJPli07jzkoTy4SPB5-9vt5-BjMvuS0dgJWWRAEpm4rL3TU_ysXrF5fj2nGWkdu4iPduCYBb/s1600/tumblr_l5vsvuyZv41qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcRezfUclKffCgDRFRlaKHw2zRjsp0-nJVXx4ZyqWH6e2gPt9b2UJyQ8z3s1CG2YDer5qIKJPli07jzkoTy4SPB5-9vt5-BjMvuS0dgJWWRAEpm4rL3TU_ysXrF5fj2nGWkdu4iPduCYBb/s320/tumblr_l5vsvuyZv41qbiz8oo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
I didntt get much sleep last night and i guess im kind of anxious to go back home, i always am. I wonder what will be different about me now, and what will have changed with my family,my friends. Or will we be exacty the same, will i still be so nervous, unable to let my guard down?<br />
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Lately ive been having a hard time getting and staying happy. There are things that i want in my life but they just dont seem to be happening or working out. and i guess i just focus on that, the negative, the poor me,the im not enough, will it ever be? Its hard to unstick old habits.<br />
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I picked up a book from the side of the road and brought it home because of the way it smells... like an old mans library, and by the marks on the first few pages its traveled through several hands before finally coming home with me.Its been well loved.<br />
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Ive started having these mini panic attacks that last about 5-10 minutes and it just kind of feels like my heart might beat right out of my chest, and i see spots,which worries me even more cause i think ill pass out,but i never do. these last couple months ive begun to get panicky over the littlest things, caffeine, alcohol, head rushes, ive always been nervous but never like this, maybe i should see a doctor when im home.<br />
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today all i wanted to do was curl up in kates lap and cry for a spell,while she told me everything was gonna be alright that its okay to feel this way , and things are gonna get better, its been over 5 years and her presence is still just as strong, and i need her just as much,if not more.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div>Dexter is my new favorite tv show ahhh soo good i highly recommend it to anyone, there is some gore but dex is a good guy, well i best head off to bed<br />
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Today was one of those too exhausted to function properly kind of days, and when im tired everything seems to get thrown out of proportion. Today i wondered "what am i doing with my life?" and honestly i dont really know and that kid of freaks me out cause it seems like so many of my friends know what they want and are going for it and thats great but im still unsure; im just going to go with it for a while and try and be as productive with my time as i can but without putting any pressure on myself to come up with any great bodies of work or even anything to show for my summer.<br />
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I just finished reading catcher in the rye, hardest book to get through...ever but then the last 20 pages it finally all came together and now i absolutely love it. it really hit home and i guess its always neat to read a book from a male perspective, not always that of a womans.<br />
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Id really like to sew on a few patches to my jean jacket before i go home and hopefully i can make some dreadlocks with some of my girls this weekend, maybe have them for when i go home at the end of the month haha i guess we shall see anyways im frickin exhausted so im outty<br />
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Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-42863488672561093442010-06-29T02:55:00.000-07:002010-06-29T03:14:00.014-07:00All fires have to burn alive<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgA09wqlR3Xwz9LomMsPFOxs-Jsk1tJoAsKia37BogKj4tVFsOqEucJHxgtmBrQGWDOvNoW6-H7YYn_D6aEiaNgvGLlGKn-g0N6KEc3_LD0E4rlKwxK7IUw_q13rHBYxk9MAARW_DIh6r_z/s1600/tumblr_l2jhk4NJXz1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgA09wqlR3Xwz9LomMsPFOxs-Jsk1tJoAsKia37BogKj4tVFsOqEucJHxgtmBrQGWDOvNoW6-H7YYn_D6aEiaNgvGLlGKn-g0N6KEc3_LD0E4rlKwxK7IUw_q13rHBYxk9MAARW_DIh6r_z/s320/tumblr_l2jhk4NJXz1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">Its 6 am and im wide awake. Is it because i can sleep in that my body suddenly feels like it hasnt enough time. I think its slightly unreasonable but im not the one in control anymore. Ive finally started to hang pictures up in my room and make my space feel more homey, and personal. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZfiZ1LdPQu5zjnFoxY6TBB8i3_GwB9II0GBr5V-LI2nEbcknYTwopGMg-vi2gouI7WiDlAoPoCgNGUCsscH1dM_9X3-TqN0yJm5upom27FG7YOdJh3GcSUN6FpFZhSOfzLNohxrRyVyMh/s1600/tumblr_l4mdp9dEiB1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZfiZ1LdPQu5zjnFoxY6TBB8i3_GwB9II0GBr5V-LI2nEbcknYTwopGMg-vi2gouI7WiDlAoPoCgNGUCsscH1dM_9X3-TqN0yJm5upom27FG7YOdJh3GcSUN6FpFZhSOfzLNohxrRyVyMh/s320/tumblr_l4mdp9dEiB1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">I finished school as of thursday evening and now i have all of this time to myself.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0fDiX5biglGVPWMghTfrs3hNcGB5OoB23Q3xz_BWScpmLiz0J38lPnlwvI_PmkDGkh8ogefg5JXLigNe8aCbxhVmD1U5rKkw83MXnLLIlXo4SM-DrMettSlX0ICgX2hzwx07Ud83n2Q6A/s1600/tumblr_l38kctAR4v1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0fDiX5biglGVPWMghTfrs3hNcGB5OoB23Q3xz_BWScpmLiz0J38lPnlwvI_PmkDGkh8ogefg5JXLigNe8aCbxhVmD1U5rKkw83MXnLLIlXo4SM-DrMettSlX0ICgX2hzwx07Ud83n2Q6A/s320/tumblr_l38kctAR4v1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"> I can finally read all those books like catcher in the rye, and maybe learn how to cook cause thats always important.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKwfDFQFnzuHfeUVB_o3LKVwSnGFx4q0nSRtmRFYpbVIcJZ_4j8fqa3UQWanTosZWEiqd6Tfc_jEHn-bRSKUkqr77FEtWV_cXOHN5EeuL-Zl2q6-QXKoKGqYOwB0QuYELIxMzuCvwfXeGZ/s1600/tumblr_l3dbgjh3Fy1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKwfDFQFnzuHfeUVB_o3LKVwSnGFx4q0nSRtmRFYpbVIcJZ_4j8fqa3UQWanTosZWEiqd6Tfc_jEHn-bRSKUkqr77FEtWV_cXOHN5EeuL-Zl2q6-QXKoKGqYOwB0QuYELIxMzuCvwfXeGZ/s320/tumblr_l3dbgjh3Fy1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">But ultimately im just going to have time to work through some things that have begun to come up again, im not really sure how to work thru them,or fix the things that have gone a rye but giving myself time to grieve, forgive, and empower myself is a good place to start.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXrPC1LUCdayC3PqNei8-S7_QjKctT9AoyAHkCQRZJ24wVGTEULab0Zi8Y9OfVppfcy5qajwNch68E9DtKSbycWw3JiH4KSdIxjk_aE6fmg2_JuQBwABjELwSjHTDnYLE1K5payn1FBVT3/s1600/tumblr_l3tvxnagVP1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXrPC1LUCdayC3PqNei8-S7_QjKctT9AoyAHkCQRZJ24wVGTEULab0Zi8Y9OfVppfcy5qajwNch68E9DtKSbycWw3JiH4KSdIxjk_aE6fmg2_JuQBwABjELwSjHTDnYLE1K5payn1FBVT3/s320/tumblr_l3tvxnagVP1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I often think about you, sometimes the illusion between reality and the dream world collide and im happy, happy being there with you until I open my eyes, and the illusion is gone. Then reality sets in and the other side of the bed is still empty and there are raindrops on my window pane.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> If we are supposed to learn to be okay on our own does that mean we are always going to have lonesome hearts? and if so why? </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXEM5VKnM0CvHoqIXOuvs5_7ZkxQP6lJpDiESrOb3V8qJdF5n62BVEn4jGlyCCTM2JA4mYXjJnsyl7QXDRPsg00259QroMXu4H1YwXvMDsP8D6CkuGnfdRH-b0TIabxXWoNUAYtOQAX8y-/s1600/tumblr_l3efr3iog51qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXEM5VKnM0CvHoqIXOuvs5_7ZkxQP6lJpDiESrOb3V8qJdF5n62BVEn4jGlyCCTM2JA4mYXjJnsyl7QXDRPsg00259QroMXu4H1YwXvMDsP8D6CkuGnfdRH-b0TIabxXWoNUAYtOQAX8y-/s320/tumblr_l3efr3iog51qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">so why couldnt relationships come easier to me,<br />
why must it be a daily struggle?<br />
and not just in the romantic sense but with everyone</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEimV7f-4hHwt2WOMaWM9GNRlE2h5tr8_ThDCPV1MwRYpLIvryHJkV2ReCXspqRXJSyQY7YPYt_jg_IyZ82iRkhs8ilsv2iwCYoJNWN8JOTAK1Rf0dhsPAlWHJKpA3EzJxOPGz3TibDlzXXx/s1600/tumblr_l4da0nJxnJ1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEimV7f-4hHwt2WOMaWM9GNRlE2h5tr8_ThDCPV1MwRYpLIvryHJkV2ReCXspqRXJSyQY7YPYt_jg_IyZ82iRkhs8ilsv2iwCYoJNWN8JOTAK1Rf0dhsPAlWHJKpA3EzJxOPGz3TibDlzXXx/s320/tumblr_l4da0nJxnJ1qzmsjjo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">I want something to be inspired about<br />
I need something to inspire me to move forward and to be all I can be.</div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-2049214668805856522010-06-20T17:42:00.000-07:002010-06-20T17:42:37.479-07:00All We Can Do Is Keep Breathing<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvrydzoVCGkJy0Pou6X1SEFhMpuib-TZ3Fc2KFF9K96fFTMemHEs2cF7r2Nmq2iHL1W80dYyqUs8YGP9kmt1g-9ssNYMNw0bOl8hCFOfnfr0li4xSsp4Xbvr9s-2zl0yvFvFjX28dYZx91/s1600/kate.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvrydzoVCGkJy0Pou6X1SEFhMpuib-TZ3Fc2KFF9K96fFTMemHEs2cF7r2Nmq2iHL1W80dYyqUs8YGP9kmt1g-9ssNYMNw0bOl8hCFOfnfr0li4xSsp4Xbvr9s-2zl0yvFvFjX28dYZx91/s320/kate.JPG" /></a></div><br />
I dont even know how to begin.<br />
Yesterday was the anniversary of kates death.<br />
A part of me died when she left, i guess i just never took the time to work through the shock , pain and sadness, of no longer having her around. Its been 5 years.I havent been able to get close to anyone since you left, even friends and family i still keep at a distance,i couldnt bare to go through that again. I keep myself well hidden and only reveal parts and pieces over time. I wish i had someone to talk to now, but no one seems to be around, or would want to hear about it anyways. Usually id end up calling my mother but shes away. I feel hollow and empty and totally uncertain of what the fuck im supposed to do next. This week is also pretty stressful with finishing my final projects for school. I really dont like weaving anymore, its just become a chore now instead of a relaxing, fun thing.My notebook still needs more time and i only have a couple of days which is making me freak out. All i can do is lie here in this bed and wish for things that come so easily to others, and fall back into my day dreams of far off places. Because at the end of the day thats how i keep breathing.Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-91008261687181684672010-06-17T20:37:00.000-07:002010-06-17T20:38:16.849-07:00Your Fathers Old Leather Shoes<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVD3gHOSrQNI9l9Z1LYf7pKsUTLYeEtj4ZNxCBjm8jp-1WgYF974yRFsxJkT9nIJ1W1gXbs8ZxYzl23Fctk1uQ-tRpKRgsGB02w2KreZGm0s2_9IjdxhRvyGEq2bqbGuP7UqvWCTadGwE6/s1600/Glass_Jars_by_theflaneyllama.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVD3gHOSrQNI9l9Z1LYf7pKsUTLYeEtj4ZNxCBjm8jp-1WgYF974yRFsxJkT9nIJ1W1gXbs8ZxYzl23Fctk1uQ-tRpKRgsGB02w2KreZGm0s2_9IjdxhRvyGEq2bqbGuP7UqvWCTadGwE6/s320/Glass_Jars_by_theflaneyllama.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Ive been thinking lately about all the great things that im bringing into my life, but im still not fully confident in myself i feel tall and okward, and just generally unsure of myself which makes things a tad more trying. Its been really great though because of these summer classes ive begun to feel more comfortable with my art, and i know that i can express myself in any shape/form and that is enough. Ive been attracting some really interesting people into my life, people that i can click with, which is cool.New NSCAD friends hurray!<br />
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I started my final weaving project which is a double weave, i made the mistake of measuring 48 ends instead of 24 so my weave became 14'' instead of 7''. So my color sequence is all off which is too bad, but i think it can still look pretty interesting rectangles and squares in purple,pink,teal,blue,red,and brown.<br />
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In my notebook class tonight we made invitations for our show coming up in july<br />
which im thrilled about, my work is going to be in the ANNA!!! life is good.<br />
well its late and i have a busy, sleepless weekend ahead of me,<br />
wish me luck!Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-65592261698191379662010-06-10T19:41:00.000-07:002010-06-10T19:41:40.525-07:00Me, The Artist and My Notebook<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAAxsLD_BM82Fl-P552N1PMKVmDjJnc0pspPu5O_35sRefq3gbb3jLp3UUxVlHenDfNRtSV84heB-w66bNOuWDQxU-U2HhtZdy25fhWroft7OBljLzBp98NtXrGxAaYfgVaVsHrgnaY9qO/s1600/frida_by_muray_nicolas_194.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAAxsLD_BM82Fl-P552N1PMKVmDjJnc0pspPu5O_35sRefq3gbb3jLp3UUxVlHenDfNRtSV84heB-w66bNOuWDQxU-U2HhtZdy25fhWroft7OBljLzBp98NtXrGxAaYfgVaVsHrgnaY9qO/s320/frida_by_muray_nicolas_194.jpg" /></a></div><br />
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<div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;">Under the guidance of 3 amazing women</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;">i am starting to come back from that far distant disconnected place i was living in</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"><b>Leslie Armstrong</b> taught me to weave,</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"> and to find beauty in a simple repetitive task,</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"> to stay positive and that i can be successful at whatever craft i choose</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"><b>Julia Cameron</b> taught me how to write morning pages everyday and to have artist dates</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"><b>Sandra Brownlee</b> taught me how to create tactile notebooks, </div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;">helped me discover what i love to do, </div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;">how to let go of my judgement around my art,</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"> how to just create art for arts sake,</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"> observe moments and capture them,</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"> and that i really do like to paint.</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"> i like to express thru textile</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;">and do self portraits</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace; text-align: center;"><b>Because well</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"> im something special.</span></b></div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-48521639928766304612010-06-04T19:33:00.000-07:002010-06-04T19:33:57.488-07:00Standup Bass and Chocolate Shakes<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQ-7IgDInAGZ23B-OHEOVgnWdJvq5U6ZzyxJcWPM57i82RAIsCcF-gzAkCN4TMeWdpbZc99uG9veYpcm10UIchyphenhyphenFsq-UjXRTwMzJA8HKJbQWO8gvyzLMpcWkl3hxb3Rje-NoN2t-LMgixC/s1600/Tree_of_Dreams_by_bl0emetjE.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQ-7IgDInAGZ23B-OHEOVgnWdJvq5U6ZzyxJcWPM57i82RAIsCcF-gzAkCN4TMeWdpbZc99uG9veYpcm10UIchyphenhyphenFsq-UjXRTwMzJA8HKJbQWO8gvyzLMpcWkl3hxb3Rje-NoN2t-LMgixC/s320/Tree_of_Dreams_by_bl0emetjE.jpg" /></a></div><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">My neighbors are playing blue grass on their porch; </div><div style="text-align: center;">There is so much that has happened in such a short period of time</div><div style="text-align: center;">i just want to record it all, time seems to be going at hyper speed</div><div style="text-align: center;">there is always something that needs to be done and then in the spaces </div><div style="text-align: center;">of freedom i just want to be with people and bug my roomies. </div><div style="text-align: center;">Right now im taking 2 summer classes which have worked out </div><div style="text-align: center;">to be so much more then i could have hoped for. Both my teachers</div><div style="text-align: center;">are fascinating and artistic creatures and im so inspired by them.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Im taking weaving with Leslie Armstrong who is really helping me find </div><div style="text-align: center;">my path in textiles and Tactile notebooks and the written word with</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sandra Brownlee who deals with more of the emotional aspect of creating</div><div style="text-align: center;">and just teaches us to make art for arts sake, because duh,</div><div style="text-align: center;">thats why im here after all. Well its late and i have work to do in the morning</div><div style="text-align: center;">but another night i will write more.</div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-39012442584603099102010-05-26T20:24:00.000-07:002010-05-26T20:24:35.134-07:00GLassy EYes<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-a5RR97jtFCtFg9B3m8BoRZqMkeRU1ocl0rpyo6XJCfOPJl_ADetOPwgrNI0iJ4DJ5wgqi0MZ36_W23aO_7Uh8VU2g4cNVaqXcVSVEIlfrutFoEMH95XvwCH6GazqLo9BV5Xr116-Qq4b/s1600/silence+and+light.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-a5RR97jtFCtFg9B3m8BoRZqMkeRU1ocl0rpyo6XJCfOPJl_ADetOPwgrNI0iJ4DJ5wgqi0MZ36_W23aO_7Uh8VU2g4cNVaqXcVSVEIlfrutFoEMH95XvwCH6GazqLo9BV5Xr116-Qq4b/s320/silence+and+light.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">So this summer i want get things done!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">i want to buy a longboard and learn how to ride it.</div><div style="text-align: center;">i want to learn to play a new instrument, either the harmonica or banjo, but it will probably end up being harmonica.</div><div style="text-align: center;">i want to embroider my jean jacket</div><div style="text-align: center;">i want to make some art for arts sake</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sometimes id just like to pause time take a break relax, breathe and then carry on again.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel like so much of my time has been wasted on moping about not feeling content</div><div style="text-align: center;">What is it that I really want anyways.... and when will i be confident enough to obtain it.</div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-57703435101817358352010-05-09T10:53:00.000-07:002010-05-09T10:53:33.812-07:00I can do the Frug<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijyvF-Vs9MJQkELQjir9Es6hbbqRNk8ngB-1681vO-j_wJMn9nqHNZu5r4O5vN9tnjzmgZU96jnl2p7kCkLVhChpXCtgYrwD3NqxybnOBXZFqpCLByabdNvfnpExFvhKjzveL4PcC3bkiG/s1600/Hula_Hoop_by_shaina74.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijyvF-Vs9MJQkELQjir9Es6hbbqRNk8ngB-1681vO-j_wJMn9nqHNZu5r4O5vN9tnjzmgZU96jnl2p7kCkLVhChpXCtgYrwD3NqxybnOBXZFqpCLByabdNvfnpExFvhKjzveL4PcC3bkiG/s320/Hula_Hoop_by_shaina74.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Today has been such a lovely sunday its a good start to summer i woke up and had brunch with jess and a few of her friends/roomates; blueberry and banana pancakes to be exact and then gave a man with a shopping cart at least 10 bags of lauren's bottles, it was pretty great. Im really hoping it doesnt decide to rain cause it would be real nice to be outside adventuring. hummdinger<br />
I want to go to the park and draw things i miss that, or go out and paint something with my little travel watercolors how i love them.<br />
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Tomorrow i start weaving which im super stoked about eeek i cant wait, what i can wait for though is that the class starts at 8:30, its the summer how dare they make me wake up at the crack of dawn<br />
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I should paint my broken orcid in a cup, maby ill just shower instead<br />
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Bloop BloopCaitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-22728413556844699392010-05-05T19:36:00.000-07:002010-05-05T19:36:23.693-07:00Rock Rock Rockabye<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6rJWF48tbrbYZSI0EgQTgI6gRBxE25DfUy2hqru_fb7pWee5MSK1SDAuj9Zko8OqC5_O1fuiXI431V4yonpwzceFW_6yQF4jmY3PTpKGy0SZ0MNaFjQWjvlM3KVz0Z2UKYiQmQK4B1zik/s1600/Mary_Janes.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6rJWF48tbrbYZSI0EgQTgI6gRBxE25DfUy2hqru_fb7pWee5MSK1SDAuj9Zko8OqC5_O1fuiXI431V4yonpwzceFW_6yQF4jmY3PTpKGy0SZ0MNaFjQWjvlM3KVz0Z2UKYiQmQK4B1zik/s320/Mary_Janes.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">Sometimes I just want to crawl out of my skin</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sometimes I just want to crawl into someone elses</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have to much time to think</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have too much time alone</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sometimes I sit in the shower</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sometimes I look at the world upside down from my mattress </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Im restless</div><div style="text-align: center;">Im not content </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">How do you learn to love yourself</div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-70433438231715641822010-05-04T19:40:00.000-07:002010-05-04T19:40:43.364-07:00As Is<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6x1ZoOjqIAcvK3SNS7_Bj0uYWAzLFzIY84wzlhOZ-m_M3xc_ZUMWc5DicP5XQjonIMLEWZo6Uy2GKBY0T_EAagb81TsvijjKqO5wauZRP5E41yy-Eq9GndIllE7ZNk9crLAbOK8SH7bq3/s1600/cargoglass.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6x1ZoOjqIAcvK3SNS7_Bj0uYWAzLFzIY84wzlhOZ-m_M3xc_ZUMWc5DicP5XQjonIMLEWZo6Uy2GKBY0T_EAagb81TsvijjKqO5wauZRP5E41yy-Eq9GndIllE7ZNk9crLAbOK8SH7bq3/s320/cargoglass.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Ive started reading this new book called The Artists Way, its a process of allowing creativity to flow more freely in your life<br />
each week you read a chapter<br />
and every morning before you do anything you sit and write 3 pages of notes<br />
just word vomit mostly, but with time you start to uncover things about yourself, and to unstick yourself from the negative bologna you keep telling yourself.<br />
So far its good, im interested to see whats going to come out of it.<br />
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My mom was in town for 4 days which was so great to see her but it felt like a whirlwind becuase we would go out all day shopping for apartmenty things and even though we spent all day together it almost seemed like we ran out of time to just hangout.<br />
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Ive been working lots lately which is great cause i need the hours, and im starting to be taught how a few things work around the shop like how to fill out orders when they are faxed in and answering the phone.Tomorrow is going to be a big day we are getting in about a 1000 flowers ! but i love it!.<br />
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I feel a little lonely in Halifax these days, i just feel disconnected from things and now im trying to find that balance of keeping in touch with people back home, while also trying to make a new home here, its not as easy as i thougt it was going to be, but i mean what really is, I just need to stay positive and have confidence.<br />
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I finally downloaded some new music to upload onto my ipod so i have something nice to listen to while i walk to and from work thank goodness, but i just discovered my ipod can play the radio genius!.<br />
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I want to write more letters this summer. everyone loves getting letters in the mail and sometimes its a whole lot nicer then a facebook message haha<br />
I repotted all my plants tonight and hung up my mirror so at least its begining to feel more homey here. I love my apartment though its groovy finally having a place thats all mine.Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-34002749127732882312010-04-24T09:58:00.000-07:002010-04-24T09:58:39.699-07:00I Was Who I Am<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Krxu2vmNF7hZIHDvbAl0KR2QxBIY5hY-ztwn01yvmbJ_dwyR4rxsef4dbGlzlXysZUg74m4T_79TYfyVECABTOhyphenhyphenaFUwWThOvF01IiSXdJS6ykDQ-o9zU5h1TOXIeaGhSyJ4GgQoA1zw/s1600/Infidelity_by_Roux_S.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Krxu2vmNF7hZIHDvbAl0KR2QxBIY5hY-ztwn01yvmbJ_dwyR4rxsef4dbGlzlXysZUg74m4T_79TYfyVECABTOhyphenhyphenaFUwWThOvF01IiSXdJS6ykDQ-o9zU5h1TOXIeaGhSyJ4GgQoA1zw/s320/Infidelity_by_Roux_S.jpg" /></a></div><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">Its funny how the first cords you come to </div><div style="text-align: center;">are the minor notes that come to serenade you</div><div style="text-align: center;">Its hard to accept yourself as someone</div><div style="text-align: center;">you dont desire</div><div style="text-align: center;">as someone you dont want to be</div><div style="text-align: center;">Give me to a ramblin man </div><div style="text-align: center;">let it always be known</div><div style="text-align: center;"> that i was who i am </div>Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-76706020486223056942010-04-22T10:00:00.000-07:002010-04-22T10:00:39.361-07:00Painting my world white<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXHRpDD_IA00WD-fn1Gy9VNB2I4KHIjURIZ_pIRfKjtxsP26Zle6D1-P6WuaaiJCfGGWVzYph0QmfnlxQ4L1UDOBbKg8d0270P4Ew0fQyTuQ0b-FGIQiqbFqWmc7A3Pgyd5lLzuaiWdOlC/s1600/inky.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXHRpDD_IA00WD-fn1Gy9VNB2I4KHIjURIZ_pIRfKjtxsP26Zle6D1-P6WuaaiJCfGGWVzYph0QmfnlxQ4L1UDOBbKg8d0270P4Ew0fQyTuQ0b-FGIQiqbFqWmc7A3Pgyd5lLzuaiWdOlC/s320/inky.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Right now im in the process of unpacking and setting up my new room. Its so great finally having my own place, and cute roomies. This process seems so daunting i hardly know where to start. I mean i have the biggest room so it should be okay but i have so much stuff, how the heck did i accumulate so many "things". Ive wanted to post for awhile but ive just been too busy with the end of school and the start of work; today is my first day off in a long time, no pressure to do anything at all glorious!<br />
But this time is precious and i dont want to waste it.I finally bought a kitchen table which is such relief, and today im going to buy white paint and paint all of my kitchen furniture 7 chairs and a table huzza! i love painting furniture. Alex said she would even paint cool flowers on the table which will be sweet.<br />
I need a dresser or some other kind of storage thing, because im taking up most of our communal shelves, and i need to hang my mirror up and wipe board on the wall so they no longer sit infront of the door bah<br />
it will all come together though in its own time <br />
Caitlin Alexandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10988333704097049798noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2691133524171914333.post-13592967862382450952010-04-18T20:16:00.000-07:002010-04-18T20:16:29.864-07:00An EggiphantI didnt feel much like doing my work tonight and i was too tired to leave the comfort of my warm new bed, and today was productive enough anyways so I looked up cute pictures and artsy wedding photos, because love is much cooler when its portrayed artistically and its nice to know that some one out there is at least in love.<br />
I only have 2 more days of classes and then im free! whoa what crazyness i can hardly believe it my first year done and finished pheww...<br />
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Im also working lots this week as well as in may which is groovy cause i love flowers and paychecks huzza!<br />
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