Your Fathers Old Leather Shoes

Ive been thinking lately about all the great things that im bringing into my life, but im still not fully confident in myself  i feel tall and okward, and just generally unsure of myself which makes things a tad more trying. Its been really great though because of these summer classes ive begun to feel more comfortable with my art, and i know that i can express myself in any shape/form and that is enough. Ive been attracting some really interesting people into my life, people that i can click with, which is cool.New NSCAD friends hurray!

I started my final weaving project which is a double weave, i made the mistake of measuring 48 ends instead of 24 so my weave became 14'' instead of 7''. So my color sequence is all off which is too bad, but i think it can still look pretty interesting rectangles and squares in purple,pink,teal,blue,red,and brown.

In my notebook class tonight we made invitations for our show coming up in july
which im thrilled about, my work is going to be in the ANNA!!! life is good.
well its late and i have a busy, sleepless weekend ahead of me,
wish me luck!

Me, The Artist and My Notebook

Under the guidance of 3 amazing women

i am starting to come back from that far distant disconnected place i was living in

Leslie Armstrong taught me to weave,

and to find beauty in a simple repetitive task,

to stay positive and that i can be successful at whatever craft i choose

Julia Cameron taught me how to write morning pages everyday and to have artist dates

Sandra Brownlee taught me how to create tactile notebooks, 

helped me discover what i love to do, 

how to let go of my judgement around my art,

how to just create art for arts sake,

observe moments and capture them,

and that i really do like to paint.

 i like to express thru textile

and do self portraits

Because well

im something special.

Standup Bass and Chocolate Shakes

My neighbors are playing blue grass on their porch; 

There is so much that has happened in such a short period of time

i just want to record it all, time seems to be going at hyper speed

there is always something that needs to be done and then in the spaces 

of freedom i just want to be with people and bug my roomies. 

Right now im taking 2 summer classes which have worked out 

to be so  much more then i could have hoped for. Both my teachers

are fascinating and artistic creatures and im so inspired by them.

Im taking weaving with Leslie Armstrong who is really helping me find 

my path in textiles and Tactile notebooks and the written word with

Sandra Brownlee who deals with more of the emotional aspect of creating

and just teaches us to make art for arts sake, because duh,

thats why im here after all. Well its late and i have work to do in the morning

but another night i will write more.

GLassy EYes

So this summer i want get things done!

i want to buy a longboard and learn how to ride it.

i want to learn to play a new instrument, either the harmonica or banjo, but it will probably end up being harmonica.

i want to embroider my jean jacket

i want to make some art for arts sake

Sometimes id just like to pause time take a break relax, breathe and then carry on again.

I feel like so much of my time has been wasted on moping about not feeling content

What is it that I really want anyways.... and when will i be confident enough to obtain it.

I can do the Frug

Today has been such a lovely sunday its a good start to summer i woke up and had brunch with jess and a few of her friends/roomates; blueberry and banana pancakes to be exact and then gave a man with a shopping cart at least 10 bags of lauren's bottles, it was pretty great. Im really hoping it doesnt decide to rain cause it would be real nice to be outside adventuring. hummdinger
I want to go to the park and draw things i miss that, or go out and paint something with my little travel watercolors how i love them.

Tomorrow i start weaving which im super stoked about eeek i cant wait, what i can wait for though is that the class starts at 8:30, its the summer how dare they make me wake up at the crack of dawn

I should paint my broken orcid in a cup, maby ill just shower instead


Bloop Bloop

Rock Rock Rockabye

Sometimes I just want to crawl out of my skin

Sometimes I just want to crawl into someone elses

I have to much time to think

I have too much time alone

Sometimes I sit in the shower

Sometimes I look at the world upside down from my mattress

Im restless

Im not content

How do you learn to love yourself

As Is

Ive started reading this new book called The Artists Way, its a process of allowing creativity to flow more freely in your life
each week you read a chapter
and every morning before you do anything you sit and write 3 pages of notes
just word vomit mostly, but with time you start to uncover things about yourself, and to unstick yourself from the negative bologna you keep telling yourself.
So far its good, im interested to see whats going to come out of it.

My mom was in town for 4 days which was so great to see her but it felt like a whirlwind becuase we would go out all day shopping for apartmenty things and even though we spent all day together it almost seemed like we ran out of time to just hangout.

Ive been working lots lately which is great cause i need the hours, and im starting to be taught how a few things work around the shop like how to fill out orders when they are faxed in and answering the phone.Tomorrow is going to be a big day we are getting in about a 1000 flowers ! but i love it!.

I feel a little lonely in Halifax these days, i just feel disconnected from things and now im trying to find that balance of keeping in touch with people back home, while also trying to make a new home here, its not as easy as i thougt it was going to be, but i mean what really is, I just need to stay positive and have confidence.

I finally downloaded some new music to upload onto my ipod so i have something nice to listen to while i walk to and from work thank goodness, but i just discovered my ipod can play the radio genius!.

I want to write more letters this summer. everyone loves getting letters in the mail and sometimes its a whole lot nicer then a facebook message haha
I repotted all my plants tonight and hung up my mirror so at least its begining to feel more homey here. I love my apartment though its groovy finally having a place thats all mine.