GLassy EYes

So this summer i want get things done!

i want to buy a longboard and learn how to ride it.

i want to learn to play a new instrument, either the harmonica or banjo, but it will probably end up being harmonica.

i want to embroider my jean jacket

i want to make some art for arts sake

Sometimes id just like to pause time take a break relax, breathe and then carry on again.

I feel like so much of my time has been wasted on moping about not feeling content

What is it that I really want anyways.... and when will i be confident enough to obtain it.

I can do the Frug

Today has been such a lovely sunday its a good start to summer i woke up and had brunch with jess and a few of her friends/roomates; blueberry and banana pancakes to be exact and then gave a man with a shopping cart at least 10 bags of lauren's bottles, it was pretty great. Im really hoping it doesnt decide to rain cause it would be real nice to be outside adventuring. hummdinger
I want to go to the park and draw things i miss that, or go out and paint something with my little travel watercolors how i love them.

Tomorrow i start weaving which im super stoked about eeek i cant wait, what i can wait for though is that the class starts at 8:30, its the summer how dare they make me wake up at the crack of dawn

I should paint my broken orcid in a cup, maby ill just shower instead


Bloop Bloop

Rock Rock Rockabye

Sometimes I just want to crawl out of my skin

Sometimes I just want to crawl into someone elses

I have to much time to think

I have too much time alone

Sometimes I sit in the shower

Sometimes I look at the world upside down from my mattress

Im restless

Im not content

How do you learn to love yourself

As Is

Ive started reading this new book called The Artists Way, its a process of allowing creativity to flow more freely in your life
each week you read a chapter
and every morning before you do anything you sit and write 3 pages of notes
just word vomit mostly, but with time you start to uncover things about yourself, and to unstick yourself from the negative bologna you keep telling yourself.
So far its good, im interested to see whats going to come out of it.

My mom was in town for 4 days which was so great to see her but it felt like a whirlwind becuase we would go out all day shopping for apartmenty things and even though we spent all day together it almost seemed like we ran out of time to just hangout.

Ive been working lots lately which is great cause i need the hours, and im starting to be taught how a few things work around the shop like how to fill out orders when they are faxed in and answering the phone.Tomorrow is going to be a big day we are getting in about a 1000 flowers ! but i love it!.

I feel a little lonely in Halifax these days, i just feel disconnected from things and now im trying to find that balance of keeping in touch with people back home, while also trying to make a new home here, its not as easy as i thougt it was going to be, but i mean what really is, I just need to stay positive and have confidence.

I finally downloaded some new music to upload onto my ipod so i have something nice to listen to while i walk to and from work thank goodness, but i just discovered my ipod can play the radio genius!.

I want to write more letters this summer. everyone loves getting letters in the mail and sometimes its a whole lot nicer then a facebook message haha
I repotted all my plants tonight and hung up my mirror so at least its begining to feel more homey here. I love my apartment though its groovy finally having a place thats all mine.

I Was Who I Am

Its funny how the first cords you come to 

are the minor notes that come to serenade you

Its hard to accept yourself as someone

you dont desire

as someone you dont want to be

Give me to a ramblin man 

let it always be known

 that i was who i am

Painting my world white

Right now im in the process of unpacking and setting up my new room. Its so great finally having my own place, and cute roomies. This process seems so daunting i hardly know where to start. I mean i have the biggest room so it should be okay but i have so much stuff, how the heck did i accumulate so many "things". Ive wanted to post for awhile but ive just been too busy with the end of school and the start of work; today is my first day off in a long time, no pressure to do anything at all glorious!
But this time is precious and i dont want to waste it.I finally bought a kitchen table which is such relief, and today im going to buy white paint and paint all of my kitchen furniture 7 chairs and a table huzza! i love painting furniture. Alex said she would even paint cool flowers on the table which will be sweet.
I need a dresser or some other kind of storage thing, because im taking up most of our communal shelves, and i need to hang my mirror up and wipe board on the wall so they no longer sit infront of the door bah
it will all come together though in its own time
 

An Eggiphant

I didnt feel much like doing my work tonight and i was too tired to leave the comfort of my warm new bed, and today was productive enough anyways so I looked up cute pictures and artsy wedding photos, because love is much cooler when its portrayed artistically and its nice to know that some one out there is at least in love.
I only have 2 more days of classes and then im free! whoa what crazyness i can hardly believe it my first year done and finished pheww...

Im also working lots this week as well as in may which is groovy cause i love flowers and paychecks huzza!

  ~ Learn To Love Yourself Little Jellybean ~