Since coming home ive had a lot of things on my mind. Direction mostly.where ive been and where i want to go.How ive let fear control most of my life illudes me but im aware now that if i keep it up its going to lead to a dead end. A locked door instead of a wide open one. Ive always assumed it was shyness and perhaps it is, or that im too much like my mother or maybe that i dont have a strong enough backbone to stand up for myself enough, i dunno really.
I started having a conversation with someone about kindness, and she told me that it is hugely important to be kind. and since i have "Kindness" inked on my body she asked me to explore what my tattoo really means to me, other then being a very sweet quote.
i had this quote in my head for years and i finally got it tattooed on my shoulder it reads
"In the end only kindness matters".
And its not just about showing kindness towards others but most importantly yourself,
which i hadnt really thought about until now. Being kind comes in all forms,
whether its giving myself that extra 10 minutes to hit the snooze button or allowing myself to go after desires,and passions, getting what i want out of life.
Creating art, sitting by the ocean, hanging out with friends, sending mail, adventuring.
I keep putting these things off, but they are what fuel me, they keep my fire going,
and without them i feel lost, and then i get sad.
So ive decided to be kind and give into my desires, and no longer hide behind my fear,
cause that never really served anyone.
Be honest.
Speak from your heart.
Speak from your heart.
Be kind to yourself.
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